PAIN IS GOOD...

ok.. i may sound a lil' maso here... but seriously I do find physical pain both a need and a want...

recently i accidently cut my hand... and at first, i was like the usual 'OUCH!'... but as the blood slowly seeps out, there's this incredible sensation... a sense of release... a sense of liberation! it felt like when i reach orgasm while getting off.. ahem... go try it! just a small cut... but no abuse aa... and do it clean and fast... i mean just observe the blood as it trickles... the sensual redness... and feel the physical pain acting like a scream... releasing the other emotional and mental pain... pushing them out like the oozing blood... that's my want for pain... or more like the desire for pain....

On the other hand (which has no cuts, hehe), we need pain..... imagine feeling no pain while your hand happily sits on a lighted stove... what do we end up with? A fucking charred hand! And so off with his hand! just because pain we feel not...

So yeah... that's all I wanna say... Pain is good...

maybe someday i'll put up some of the entries that i shared with salleha from some online journal i forgot...

Adios amigos!