Changes again

k.. I'm having my break now in graveyard shift with Lisa.. Using the terminals at Pacific Coffee while eating my sandwich.. Realising this, I think I'm using the most unhynenic, mayo- coated, coffee- splattered keypads ever! Gross..

Think I'll sanitise my hands when I get to work.. HAHAHA..

k.. First thing, I moved out! Of Hall 2 that is.. Packing my stuff on tuesday was the saddest event of the year.. Recalling all I did in that room made the packing even slower.. And I took like 6 hours to pack all my stuff.. It was alot alot of stuff.. Boy, was I wrong thinking that my clothes would be the bulk.. Instead my nonsense, like the rebana, my pillows, mugs and toiletries contributed to a total of 4 huge 2ft x 3ft x 1 ft bags and a huge box..

I'll miss it.. It's smell and it's calm and cool atmosphere..

Next, I have sworn to myself to let my hair grow long.. Not that I'll never cut it again, but maybe just the fringe and layer it time to time.. And I shall stop colouring it.. I dunno why, but yeah.. Guess it's time for a change..

And lastly, I wish a GET WELL SOON to Yusri.. Don't be so down aite.. These things take time.. Look on the bright side.. Least you'll have more time to yourself..

And yeah.. Thanks to all who cared.. I love you guys..

Updates

I just enabled the comments function again to see how it goes.. Hopefully it won't be like before.. So guys, please..

A good friend was reading my previous post and said I'm superficial.. Well yeah, I am.. I like things sweet and would rather it stay sweet.. As the saying goes: quit while you're still ahead..

Life's a gamble..

Hearing myself talk about love all the time makes me sick.. I feel like puking at every thought of it that passes by.. So now I shall swear to write no more of it in the next 5 posts.. There are many other things I could talk about, but seemed too trivial to blog about..

Like why, if a boy born in a family with many girls, always be the one who achieve the least academic qualification? In my family, for example, Sufian is the only one in the Normal stream.. In my cousin's family, Aim is the same case.. My uncle, my mom's brother, too.. And all their sisters made it to university, poly and shit..

Or maybe it's the other way around?

Maybe when there's too many of the same gender, they'll start competing, naturally and instinctively.. In Cleavon's family, there are 2 boys and both made it to RI (Raffles Institution) and they are not rich or have parents involved with the government.. So i guess it's happening to my family too.. All the girls in my house have fairly good O- level grades.. Same goes to this friend of mine, Khairul.. He and his brother are geniuses with outstanding A- level grades..

But what happens if a family has a good mix of gender? Like in my dad's siblings: 3 boys and 2 girls.. All of them did fairly well, except one genius who received the prime minister award (my dad, DUH?) and another who served time in prison and made lotsa kids well before 22 (my eldest uncle).. Will that kind of family generate a black sheep and a favourite son/ daughter?

I dunno.. I mean I'm not saying this just to stereotype, but it's happening in almost EVERY family I know.. Not saying boys are stupid or anything, but really, I just realised I've never actually dated a guy with highger qualifications than I do.. Some of them are on par with me, and mostly, lower.. Maybe it's just my age or maybe I just hate smart guys.. Or never get to meet them.. Or find them too nerdy and calculative.. Or maybe I find boys from Normal streams more attractive because of their talents elsewhere, like sports or music or arts.. Yeah, I like boys who are good in those.. They're extremely exciting and interesting..

I was thinking about this when I was talking to Fais at work.. Was discussing with him about my female friends in university who look down at ITE people, when I, on the other hand, often date guys from ITE..

Okaaaaaaaaaaaay.. Stop rite there.. No more love talk!

Next issue: CDR (connect, discover, respond)..

This is a requirement of every STARBUCKS barista.. While doing anything, especially at the bar, we are expected to interact with the waiting customers while trying to pour out 70 degree celcius of hot milk into their latte..

When I just started out a year ago, I knew I was good at it, but now I just can't do it.. In fact, I HIDE behind the Verismo to do my drink all just to avoid eye contact with the customers.. What the hell is wrong with me????

And when the noisy partners work with me, namely Faizah, Kavi and Cam, I shut up.. I stop all my nonsense immediately and stray from the group.. My answers to them are mainly 'yes' or 'no' or 'huh'..

Even with Lonerz, sometimes.. When Bedah, Aisyah, Ain and Sameema get loud, I just corner myself and will only laugh at their jokes.. Or when Faisal goes on and on about scuba diving or his cousins, I just listen and laugh..

But it doesn't work oppositely.. Like if I'm with Salleha in the room and she's quiet, I won't go noisy.. Meaning one thing: I've become quiet.. Tho' many do comment that I'm friendly or 'peramah'.. Maybe because I smile alot? Giggle alot? I dunno..

I need to learn to be noisy again.. It's a job requirement... Sometimes I wonder how some could talk about anything and everything.. Like Faizah or Kavi.. Or like the Aliff guy, Aim's band leader.. He was talking nonstop from Pasir Ris to Hougang and back to Pasir Ris.. He could create a whole conversation with himself and comment and laugh at his own thoughts- out loud! And it seems all natural..

Maybe I talk too much on my blog that I don't talk to people because it will seem all too rehearsed..

So I should stop.. Hehe..

Sweet sweet sorrow

Yes, another sleepless nite..

Affair with the wedding guy, a.k.a. Yusri, is over.. It ended as fast as it came but the effect is almost tsunami- like.. Just a few seconds of rumble and death toll soars to 300 000..

We would make the most star- crossed lovers ever.. But now that he's gone, I realised that I really truly fell in love with him.. Even though it was just a one month affair, but it was intense and exciting.. Yusri has coloured my life like no other and egotistic me painted black all over it..

In every way, he is the most undesirable date I had:

1) He doesn't talk
2) He loves his bike like a wife
3) He is physically- unattractive
4) He is scrawny
5) He rarely eats
6) He rarely sleeps
7) He's a lil' clingy (manja)
8) He works 24/7
9) He has a criminal record
10) He drinks
11) He doesn't pray or puasa or whatever to do with God
12) He smokes
13) He has an 80's- rocker fashion sense

But at the same time, his woman is the luckiest bitch in the world:

1) He'll pay for EVERYTHING- food, shopping, movies, etc.
2) He'll send you back, even if its from one end to the other end of the island (NTU to Changi!)
3) He's loyal and calls and messages you all the time
4) He's sporty
5) He's passionate
6) He's apologetic
7) He's gentle, polite, open- minded and considerate
9) He's musically- inclined
10) He sings to his woman
11) He loves the beach
12) He's not hairy
13) He saves for his future and is independent in every way

Despite the rushed relationship, I felt he gave me so much space and time because he was straightforward and open- minded.. He told me he wanted to get married (with me at 25), and he's not afraid to tell me that..

And if you guys know, I run away at the hint of 'commitment'.. Cos I'm just too afraid, and simply, a bitch..

Sometimes, I felt he was giving me all his heart and all I did was squeeze it.. He spent his free time with me (including lunch break from work), kissed me passionately, held my hand and repeatedly stroked it.. He showed me so much physical and emotional affection, that I felt he deserved much better.. That I was playing with his heart.. That he should be with another who is as loving as him..

That we weren't meant to be..

And so, to Ahmad Yusri, I'm so sorry for being such a jerk, a bitch and trouble for you.. Know that your efforts moved me in every way, every nerve in my body.. Your company has been my best friend, most intense in all its silent smiles and glances.. So sorry for wasting your time.. I am just not your type who'll stay loyal and commited.. I hope you'll find another who is more worthy one day..

So so very sorry.. I loveD you.. Even though we were not officially together, you know it was mutual.. I just felt I should stop it from further damage because I don't want you to get too involved and even much more hurt when you see the real ugly Yati.. So throw away my picture and fill your wallet with other 'love'..

To all my fellow female friends, I hope this kind of heartbreak will never come to you.. Never be afraid of commitments.. Never judge a book by its cover.. Love when you can.. And speak while you have the chance.. Carpe Diem..

Hey, hey and hey...

So I sounded a lil' bimbotic the last post..

I'm savouring my SUBWAY 6" now, tuna on parmesan oregano, and realised how lovely it is.. The richness of the melted cheese blend so well into the sweet minced tuna meat topped with mayonnaise, olives, lettuce and tomatoes, wrapped in a soft loaf of slightly toasted cheese- flavoured bread.. And the sound of the pouring rain, the soft touch of the breeze and slight smell of salt in the air..

Aaaaahh.. It's so perfect..

Hell I'm sure gonna miss this room.. The small, cosy residence of Hall 2, Room 2-130 in NTU.. The memories.. Sincerely, if you look at my room, first word comes to mind: Pathetic.. It's amazing how I made it HOME and am helplessly in love with it.. The thought of letting it go in a fortnight's time feels like letting a husband go to war.. God, please, let it be like this, always.. I promise I'll never eat chocolates again.. Just let it stay this way..

Haha.. What I'll give..

And I know SUBWAY's not halal.. You don't need to tell me that 'cos tuna is.. It's like Delifrance before it went halal.. The only reason that stops Muslims from buying is that piece of ham or bacon.. I always wonder why some restrict themselves so much even tho' they'll still pick that can of corned beef that was initially stacked on top of ham sausages while in shipment at supermarkets.. Nonsense..

Another interesting observation: babies!

Realised 1) many are having babies and 2) all the babies are girls! As believed, ratio of women to men will eventually be 9 : 1!

In store: Nick's baby, Faisal's baby to- be, Aszy's baby, Sam's baby... And they are all girls! Faisal's bro just had one, and it's a girl too! My cuz is pregnant, and scans show it's a girl! So I urge u pregnant ladies, to make the world a better place by naming your child Heryati...

Heheheh...

But it's scary.. I mean if not that many boys will be borned, then that 9 girls will have to be with one old balls.. I mean two.. I mean he's an old balls.. Whatever..

If I get pregnant, most probably I'll alter the baby's gender: Boy.. Tho I know it is very much opposed by many, I'll still do it..

I mean really.. Millions of female babies are killed for generations now in India and China, not forgeting the millions of women burned during the witch- hunt in the 16th century, yet, by population, we outnumber men..

Lesbians on the rise.. Hehehe.. According to my part- time manager, Lisa, she observed that many men are married, while women are mostly lesbians now.. Maybe it's just my age, but most of my guy friends aren't married nor do they have girlfriends.. But true, many girls are lesbians now..

I don't now if this trend stays, but I think it's about time our government plan for our future.. Maybe they should:

1) Encourage polygamy.
2) "Legalise" lesbians and allow clubs to openly have lesbian nites just for the sake of revenue.
3) Conduct courses on polygam-ism.
4) Increase production and improvise sanitary pads, tampons, lingerie and chocolates.
5) Make vaginoplasty and breast augmantation cheaper.
6) Take the Swiss stand by embracing Neutrality, stop military operations and stop production of neuclear and military weapons as there will be no more men to recruit for the army.
7) Allow gender modification in pregnancy.
8) Conduct grooming classes for men and train them in strip dancing and gentleman- hood.
9) Build up more all- girls schools.
10) Double the ratio of female public toilets.

hahaha.. That'a all I could think of now..

If you guys can suggest more, tell me aite?